this Savory Chai Bread is delicious and packed with protein & fiber and almost no sugar, you can omit the molasses completely, I prefer to use a little to add to the richness and caramelization....

ingredients
1/2c coconut oil
1/4c canned coconut milk or cream
1/2c bhakti chai concentrate
12 eggs
2T vanilla bean paste
1t salt
2T cinnamon
2T unsulphured molasses
1c sifted coconut flour

procedure
1. Preheat oven to 350F and line a metal baking round, square or bread pan with parchment paper
2. Bring all ingredients to room temperature
3. Mix vanilla, molasses & milk
4. Sift flour and stir in salt & cinnamon (dry ingredients)
5. Beat eggs on high to pale yellow & frothy
6. Pour mix milk mixture into eggs along the side of the bowl and use a spatula to incorporate
7. Gently fold dry ingredients in being careful to not over mix
8. Bake for 30 minutes in a round or square...up to an hour in a bread pan...until the bread is light and springs back to the touch/toothpick test

***1/2c chocolate chips or nuts is also delicious

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